I was supposed to be a successful licensed Psychologist by now and I'm not even close.
Where to begin with this one? I find that I have to forgive myself for a lot of things. I recognize and accept that I'm going to make mistakes. Some things are easy to forgive and some, for me, are much harder.
Currently, I'm struggling to forgive myself for not fully living up to my childhood dream. By this time in my life I believed I would have PhD in Psychology. I'd planned to be a practicing psychologist with a special interest in studying the dynamics of romantic relationships. Even back then, I visualized myself as a guest psychologist on Oprah. In November 2009 Oprah announced the last season of her show. Publicly the announcement was about the show, personally it was a door closing on my dream. I was supposed to be a successful licensed Psychologist by now and I'm not even close.
I didn't just wake up one day and realize that I hadn't moved on my original professional goals. I work on a college campus. Every May there is a parade of graduates walking thru the campus in their cap and gowns celebrating their success. It's not the undergraduates that phase me, it's the gowns with the hoods that pull my heartstrings. I was supposed to be a successful licensed Psychologist by now and I'm not even close.
Instead of getting that doctoral degree, I started a beautiful family that I am very proud of. My life has wonderful qualities I was too young and naive to dream of back then. I'm also going to have to forgive myself for seeming unappreciative.
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